Saturday, May 8, 2010

What We Can't Control

This past week and a half has left me mentally exhausted. While I'm undoubtedly thrilled beyond belief by the prospect of a new life in NYC, I'm also incredibly stressed out by my current life in Austin. I've been selling furniture via Craigslist nonstop since making my decision, and if you've sold on Craigslist before then you know how annoyingly flaky people can be. Luckily my diligence seems to be paying off as most of my big pieces have been sold (bie bie beloved pink bookshelves!). Unfortunately, the thing giving me the most anxiety is my darling petite pink palace.

I've done everything. I've posted on Craigslist, I've forwarded emails to all my friends and friends, I've posted on Facebook, and I've even made up fliers. But still most of the inquiries I've received are half-hearted (and often downright shady), and the one opportunity that i thought would definitely happen did not. I'm at my wit's end and also? I'm tired of being so damn stressed out about it. I've done what I can and I'll continue to do it, but some things just can't be controlled, and this is one of them. My Mom's being incredibly nice and telling me not to worry and that if it doesn't get sublet, then it's not the end of the world. I KNOW that, but still, it bugs me that this one piece of the puzzle won't fit. (And no, I cannot get out of my lease, it's pretty much impossible. Oh and breaking my lease would cost more than just paying it out. I hate TX.) I literally could not fall asleep last night waiting to hear back from this guy who promised to give me an answer last night, but of course didn't let me know until this afternoon and via TEXT. Punk. At this point, I'm offering an arm AND a leg to the person who takes over my lease and still, no takers. WTH people??

Okay, I'm done whining. The point is, I can't control it and so I just need to let it go. If it happens, it happens, and if it doesn't, it doesn't. And truth be told, everything else in my life has kind of worked out perfectly regarding this move, so I need to accept that perhaps this won't. But... what a waste of space!!! This gorgeous apartment will go uninhabited for 5 whole months. Le sad.

Anyway, I'm currently laying out on my parents' front lawn with Lola and a big ole blanket. It's gorgeous here in Dallas - sunny and breezy. And because my parents practically live in the country, it's SO quiet minus the chirping birds and rustling leaves. No kidding. I'm going to enjoy it and STOP stressing over my apartment.

(That being said, can y'all please keep your fingers crossed for me???)


Carolyn said...

Fingers crossed..

Phoenix Peacock said...

just breathe.
and yes, crossing all fingers and toes

TheAnalyst said...

Good luck!

shelly said...

fingers crossed :) it will all work out.

i had to do the same thing when i moved in with my boyfriend....i sold every piece of furniture and my car on craigslist. i made a ton of money but i had to work really hard for it. cl people are def flaky.

just keep smiling and think of the fun adventures that lie ahead of you!

Yogadiva said...

I will definitely keep my fingers crossed for you! I can so relate...We put our house on the market last July, and we just recently got it under contract, so we can move! In retrospect, it's actually all working out perfectly, but in the meantime, I was driving myself completely batty trying to control a situation that was out of my control! Hang in there.


Sallie Ann said...

Sounds like you've done all the work. Now just let go and let someone come snatch up your Texas spot. Stop worrying. Everything is going to fall into place. I'm so excited for you! You're exactly where you need to be! xo

Melita said...

it will work out darling! hugs!!

Lauren said...

Best of luck and I say...sometimes you need to do a little whining to feel better! :)


Kiki said...

Like Phoenix said, just breathe. Enjoy your time with Lola. Fingers AND toes crossed for you, and sending good wishes your way!