Day 8... Life Sans Lola

This post is going to be a short one. My day was pretty uneventful... it was chilly and raining all day, and since I had to wait for the UPS guy anyway, I chose to stay in. On top of that, my mood kind of matched the weather outside. Everyone told me that New York is the loneliest city in the world, despite the insane number of people walking around it. I can see why. Even though my time here has been a flurry of brunches, drinks, dinners, and friend dates galore, I miss my family, and I really miss my Lola.

There are, like, 7 pet shops within a few blocks of my apartment, and every time I see one I think, "Oh good! I can get Lola's... Oh. Wait." And every time I see a fluffy white dog on the street, my heart stops. I miss her so much, and sometimes I think I made the wrong decision coming here because it means being without her. Dramatic? Maybe. But she's my child and my love, so I don't really care how stupid or silly I sound. And no, she can't come here. First, I can't afford to have her here and give her a good life. Second, it's disgusting... seriously. I would have to bathe her every single night before we went to bed if she lived here. And third, her life would be about 10x worse than it was in Austin, and you know what? Her life in California right now is about 5x better than it was in Austin. You do the math. I mean, just look at her...

(She's sleeping in her cousin Sofie's bed despite the very large bed next to it. Love.)

I don't think she misses me as much as I miss her, but like a parent, I don't care (that much) as long as I know she's happy. And she looks pretty happy to me...