Monday, March 7, 2011
Brief but very necessary reminder that this is one of MANY reasons I am awesome possum.
I am happy. I am very happy right now. Overall, I'm happier than I've been in a very long time. But still, old feelings, haunts and fears have a sneaky way of surprising me... revisiting with a vengeance. And it sucks. I'm not sure if it was the alcohol, the terrible/not-worth-it/left-me-very-hungry $75 dinner (my one nice dinner out this month), the fact that my manager is leaving or because it's that time of the month, but last Thursday night I had a bit of a breakdown. For the first time in a very long time, my sister's success left me feeling like a complete and total failure. I cried. A lot. I may or may not have called my Mom crying (and she may or may not have laughed at me - in a very loving way, bien sur). I may or may not have been a puffy, sleep-deprived mess the next day at work who fought back tears alllll day. Luckily, I had an awesome weekend with friends that reminded me that life is, in fact, very sweet. Saturday we went to the Armory Show for some art and culture and ah-mazing people-watching and then to a couple of parties in the evening. I had FUN. Some pics from the show, courtesy of my friend David:
Also? Fingers crossed that my badass/successful/amazing/inspiring sister gets to come to NYC for work in a couple of weeks. I miss her!
Have v. v. v. busy/stressful week at work. 2 mah-jor meetings tomorrow, and manager M leaves on Wed. :(