Sunday, July 18, 2010

Finding My Way Back

It is HAWT in the District. It's like 95 degrees and humid as a swamp kind of hot. But luckily, I met Valerie from City Life Eats at Cafe Green in Dupont for a spectacular vegan brunch and had one of the most delicious beverages of my life. It was a coconut water/coconut meat/raw cacao/agave iced smoothie concoction that rocked my freaking world and made the heat ever so slightly more bearable. Merci Valerie for introducing me to such a fabulous eatery! I will most definitely be back.

This quick trip to DC was just what the doctor ordered. DC is much quieter and un peu slower than the daily hustle and bustle of New York City. I've enjoyed the quiet here. That being said, I'm eager to get back to the city (and the afternoon shade that the tall buildings provide). Last night while we were out, I told my friend J that when I realized that I only had one more day here, I immediately thought, "Boooo I don't want to go back to Austin and go back to work..." And then I realized, HA - I don't have to!! And I must confess, it was a very, very good feeling indeed.

Being here has also reminded me to write this very post which I've been meaning to write for the past couple of weeks. For the past 6-8 months, I've been in a weird place. I've been sort of anti all things self-help/yoga/deeply introspective/whatever. I stopped journaling. I stopped practicing yoga. I stopped reading and collaging. And I stopped wanting to read that kind of content on the blogosphere or anywhere else. I just kind of shut down that formerly big part of my life and went elsewhere. I still can't fully explain why, but I am happy to report that since moving to NYC, I've discovered that I am slowly but surely finding my way back to that place. It probably won't ever be where or what it was before, but I think that's a good thing. I'm journaling again, I'm finding my way back to the mat, I'm eager to tear inspirational images or words out of magazines, and I'm rediscovering some truly beautiful blogs. It's a good thing.

My life has changed so drastically in the past few months that I'm often completely unaware of where I am, what I'm doing, why I'm doing it or where I'm going. I've always been the opposite. I always knew what my step was, whether I liked it or not, and not knowing for the first time in my life is both incredibly freeing and extremely terrifying. I'm more thankful than ever to have this blog as an outlet to not only share my triumphs and struggles with you, but to connect with so many of you who have either been through this before or are currently experiencing it now. Isn't it wonderful? It will never cease to amaze me how powerful the blogosphere has been and how lucky I am to have met (both virtually and physically) all of you amazing individuals. Je t'adore beaucoup. I hope you had a divine weekend. See you Monday...

6 comments:

Revanche said...

I love that you're going through this journey right now and rebuilding a new relationship with the things that used to occupy a huge space in your life.

Isn't it invigorating to discover how it fits in the new you?

hugs!

naturally nina said...

Taking a break from self-help is actually, in my opinion, a great thing. We all need breaks from so much "work" on our selves, and give ourselves time to just "be". I think it's healthy, so I'm proud of you! :)

TheAnalyst said...

You have been in a whirlwind of change lately, so it doesn't surprise me that your positive comforts took a back seat as you just try to get through the day. I'm sure they will make a new recovery soon and perhaps help you create a new perspective on life.

kirstyb said...

i wish it was hot over here xxxx

Meghan said...

So glad you are feeling happy and content!

fresh365 said...

Ahh yes, I have completely shut down a few times in my life when I am burnt out. Its sad when you put aside the things that make you happy, but I am glad you are slowly finding your way back and cutting out the overdose. Sometimes you just need a change and although it is scary for awhile, you will end up learning so much about yourself. you are always so honest here, and it is much appreciated!